Kisah UM saya hari ini~

Diwajibkan atas kamu berperang, padahal itu tidak menyenangkan bagimu. Tetapi boleh jadi kamu tidak menyenangi sesuatu, padahal itu baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal itu tidak baik bagimu. Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu TIDAK mengetahui. Albaqarah:216

Ada masanya kehidupan kita ini boleh dikatakan tipikal. Namun ada masanya ia menjadi sangat menarik. Unik mungkin. What ever it is, this is the road that Allah has decide for us to use. Sebagai hambanya, perjalanan ini haruslah sentiasa ditempuhi degan sabar, dan diniatkan hanya keranaNya.

Perhaps post ini adalah sedikit personal, tapi saya rasa ia perlu dibuat. Sebagai renungan, sebagai tatapan para ikhwah dan boleh jadi explanation untuk suatu fakta yang.. tidak benar mungkin pada saat ini…

Segalanya bermula di.. hurm of course UM(UNIVERSITY MALAYA). To be exact, di bilik Dr. Sharifudin bersama rakan seperjuangan yang insyaAllah akan ke cambridge kira2 3 minggu dari sekarang. Meeting ini dimulakan dengan kata-kata aluan dari pada dr…

” Sometimes,human tend to get agitated easily. An issue may excites human being from a normal quantum state, n=1 to an excited state n>1(but n is integer). The transition energy could be of as high as the Electronic transition. How funny, we are actually acting like a single electron in a system though the fact is, we are made of millions or perhaps, trillions of them. This is the system we are facing at the moment. When the scientist who made the remarkable discovery of electron transition due to interaction with electromagnetic wave, which became the basic of modern spectroscopy, they are hail by the scientific community. This ‘Agitation’ of electron is a meaningful theory, solving plenty of problems human yet to discover. However, today’s human agitation due to issues cause us to be REJECTED PATHETICALLY. Rejected by a community of a higher order.”    (Ada sedikit tokok tambah berlaku) “

Saya macam dah sedikit paham maksud yang cuba disampaikan oleh lecturer physical chemistry itu. Namun hati ini masih cuba menafikan kenyataan yang bakal dikhabarkan olehnya… Namun segalanya sia2. Everything changes when he made the anoucement…

” Sad to say, We are not going to Cambridge this year.”

And the meeting ended a minute later with goodbyeS and goodluckS

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I was on my way for the friday prayer that moment, when my unsatisfied mind keeps the story still rolling…

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Saya mengimbau kembali tempoh tiga minggu yang telah berlalu di UM. Banyak yang telah berlaku, dan banyak yang telah menyedarkan diri ini akan kesilapan yang selalu dilakukan. So far, dengan bantuan2 lecturer yang sy rs terbaik in chemistry telah membuka mata saya akn kehebatan Allah s.w.t.

The intelligent postulation by Schrodinger, with a help from De Broglie’s hypothesis have lead to a remarkable discovery in quantum mechanic. Allah’s unimaginable creation of electron that exhibits both the property of a particle and a wave, could only be track and made good use by mere postulation by this scientist. Surprisingly though, this postulation works. MasyaAllah.

I’ve learn so much so far. And really i hope i can spread the knowledge to Muslims out there if given the chance…

YET,

Many i have missed in the pursuit of knowledge. The fact that i have missed the one an only chance of traveling around the country with my beloved ikhwah is unbearable…. there’s more, but maybe i should just stop the whining.

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I guess i made this clear. I’m most probably not going to cambridge for the ICHO this year regardless all the hard work. The ministry of education have just confirmed that they would  NOT approve any Malaysia’s team for any competitions due to the H1N1 mayhem.

Sukan Asia, Mathematics Olympiad in germany, Physics Olympiad in Mexico and yes, Chemistry Olympiad in UK.. i think there’s more people out there who share the same lament as i am.

I have contacted syafiq( Maths olympiad,classmate) and confirmed it with him as well.

It’s all beyond our control….

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And yes, those are my thoughts back then just before i realized something regarding this plot He had decided for me, much2 earlier.

Plot kehidupan aku sangat unik

Percaturan OlehNya bagi menyusun jalan kehidupan aku sangat lah teliti dan alhamdulillah, ia sememangnya yang terbaik untuk ku InsyaAllah. Aku hanya mampu tersenyum sekarang. 3 minggu aku menuntut ilmu dan menambah pengalaman yang berharga dan hanya 3 hari aku digembirakan dengan kenyataan aku terpilih dalam Team Malaysia for ICHO 2009 dan pastiyya, ada sesuatu di sebalik ketentuan itu. I guess this is the time to get my self back on track, to further focus on my TOP priorithy.

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Kepada sahabat2 yang sering membantu diri ini sepanjang berada di UM, baik secara physical atau emosi , Kepada Ummi fauziah,Puan Punia, Puan Rozlina yang sangat2 motivating i couldn’t say more than,

I’M SORRY

To SOME OF MOST IMPORTANT PEOPLE who i called informing them bout the news that i was selected,

I’M SORRY

And to chem (roommate)

It seems like i won’t be the first one to tinjau2 medan dakwah UK,

InsyaAllah kita kena tinjau sama2 when the time for us to REALLY FLY, comes.

ICHO TRAINING 2009 : Phase 1 tamat

Alhamdulillah, sekarang sudah 3 minggu aku berkampung di UM, berjuang keranaNYA through Olimpiad Chemy 2009 cambridge.

Phase satu tamat?

Tamat nye phase satu ni menandakan beberapa bab penting untuk ICHO kali nih which is:

1) Kitrg akan bertukar tempat tidur daripada kolej kediaman 9 ke Rumah U (Hotel di universiti Malaya) yg insyaAllah lengkap dengan aircond,peti sejuk, tv dan sbg..

2) Team Malaysia ICHO cambridge 2009 sudah dipilih oleh professor2 yang bertanggungjawab.

3) And alhamdulillah, i got to continue this fight in University of Cambridge from 17th – 27th July.

Phase 2 of the training will be about we striving the best to complete the preparatory problems (ala2 trial paper) yg diproduce by the host country. So far alhamdulillah have completed half, leaving me another 15 questions to put my mind and energy into! So here goes, ini malam terakhir di kolej kediaman sembilan, dan malam terakhir aku bersusah payah nk cari makan time dinner. heh.

Semoga perjuangan ini sentiasa di bawah rahmatNya. Tahun ini lebih mencabar perjalanan yg telah ditetapkan oleh-Nya. This year team malaysia only have me as a muslim candidate. Guess pengalaman lampau yg tak best perlu di ambil teladan bagi meneruskan perjuangan sebenar sebagai seorg Da’ ie.

And last, thx u so much to all ikhwah out there, who keep in touch with me through out my loneliness( er… sudah2 la tu hafiz) di UM ni..

wslm

As I pay a visit…

Back then in KMB, i used to have a habit which i guess some would not be pleased with it. But it’s okay, since i got something very meaningful from it. I actually learn something.

Some of my classmates and neighbours might have noticed this. I loved to spent my time in the class doing homeworks or pick up some books and add in valuable knowledge as much as i could. I did this mostly in my class, yet occasionally i did that too in the LRC or my room. Usually, when I’m in the class at late evening, it is already empty of students, leaving only me with my matters. As time passed by, I’ll get boring and my focus drop.

This is the moment when i’ll make my way on a little ‘visitation’. Yeah, I went to my neighbour’s classroom when there’s nobody inside. I know this may lead to something fishy, where some of you may think that i’m somewhat a thief or wutever, but don’t worry. I’m Not. Simply visiting others’ classes with no particular motive. As i mentioned before, i did this for a couple of times.

So here goes something. On my occasional visits, there’s one visit that i will always remember. This visitation took place in class M07*.  There’s nobody there, and i just walked around from table to table. Suddenly, something caught my eye.

On this table, there’s a crumpled paper which is arranged nicely at the conner end of the table. Being sensitive to a crumpled paper, all that’s left in my mind is to take it and throw it from distance into a bin. Being a bit addicted to basketball, my hands and mind will automatically being geared to a shooting position, whenever I get hold on such paper, items, or whatever. As I’m about to ’shoot’ that crumpled paper, something just came in my mind telling me i should re-crumple it first. I hesitated, but soon decided to re crumple it. And yeah, i guess my thoughts are right this time. There’s a writing on it that really caught my attention.

****** kena tabah! sabar!

Alam nasyrah

Al baqarah:45

Al baqarah:216

Al hadid 22-23

Ad duha

I think i can still remember exactly what’s written on the paper… Perhaps there’s some part missing at the introduction. This person is talking to him/her self, calming him/her self. Yeah, During that moment, it was a time where almost all KMB IB students are physically and emotionally challenged with loads of assignments and works. I’m in that position too.

I checked and confirmed who this person was and i felt sorry to him/her. Somehow i know this person quite well yet i did not approach him/her to at least  say some encouraging words to him/her. But of course, he/she searched for Him compared to others and i believed He should have help him/her later. Alhamdulillah…

I learn quite a lot from this incident and i hope so as you.

wslm

p/s: I did not tell him/her that i actually came to him/her place and read something of his/her. Guess it’s better left unsaid.

A lesson from a friend

A few days ago i got myself into a setback. Feeling so down about so many things, i decided to talk to some of my friends for advice. Many responded, but i guess these below are the best so far.

“He is the owner of every heart that ever existed. Ask from Him even tough you only need One out of millions. The thoughts of stealing it is even worse, so don’t ever think of that.”

Day 1 : IChO 2009 Training

Assalamualaikum

9.21pm Isnin 8/6/2009

Kolej kediaman 9 University Malaya

Maka diri ini pun bangun tido dengan rasa tak sedap hati. Cam biase tgk jam, 650 am. Ya Allah, subuh!!!! so aku pun lari dan cepat2 bangun semayang subuh. Selesai doa aku teringat yang hari ni bakal menjadi first day aku kat UM for International Chemistry Olympiad Training 2009. SubhanAllah, diri ini baru sedar yang banyak lagi yang belum di study even tough esok akan ade first test (selasa)… isk2

Mandi—-Sarapan—- Kemas2 skit—- Berangkat pergi

Oleh sebab baru lepas Test komputer dan belum dapat lesen L pun lagi, hanya public transport jadi pilihan. HUrm like usual, KTM di stesen kajang.

Venue: KTM

MasyaAllah sangat2 lah banyak manusia. Diri ini terhimpit di kalangan mereka dan tak mampu nak buat pape. Dapat naik train tanpa perlu tunggu 2 kali pun dah cukup bersyukur. Aku naik di stesen kajang dan turun di KL sentral. Alhamdulillah baki duit dalm touch n go card masih ade rm20+++. Perjalanan ke UM diteruskan dengan menaiki LRT putra.

Venue: LRT putra.

Dengan confident nyer aku naik platform satu nak pegi ke masjid Jamek dan transit LRT STAR pula. Bile dah separuh jalan baru sedar tak perlu pun ke masjid Jamek. Teruskan je ke stesen University gune LRT PUTRA nih. Ish2…

So aku pun patah balik dan tunggu train yang sepatutnya. Tepat 1.00pm aku sampai ke stesen University. Alhamdulillah stesen yang tepat maka aku teruskan perjalanan ke UM dengan menaiki bas Rapid KL T632… hurm leceh

Venue: Pintu gate UM.

Dah sampai. OK what’s next? aku pun tanye Pak guard sbb aku tak tau macammana nak pegi kolej kediaman 9. Pak guard tu gelak!

“K 9 hahahah. Jauh ar dik kalo nk jalan kaki… pi la tahan teksi tuh”

Nak dijadikan cerita orang teksi tu pun tak tau… so dier pun tanye2 org je. Alhamdulillah smpai pun Kolej kediaman 9… Masalahnya, rm10 inggit aku melayang gara2 pemandu teksi tuh.. kuang aSam!!!

Venue: kolej kediaman 9 UM.

Alhamdulillah, pandangan pertama aku kat kolej kediaman(asrama) ni agak positive. Sunyi dan tenteram je. Banyak pokok2 dan bunga yang somehow menenangkan! Aku teringat aku belum solat zuhor so aku pun teruskan mencari surau. Agak pening untuk mencari tapi atas bantuan seorang brader aku pun jumpa surau K9 nih.

Namun hati ini sedikit kecewa bila masuk dah kosong surau tuh… Terlepas lagi peluang solat jemaah yang sering kali aku terlepas semenjak berada di rumah… isk2 sedih. Aku pun teruskan solat…

Setelah dapat kunci bilik aku pun masuk dan kemas. InsyaAllah narative akn diteruskan melalui penerangan tentang facilities2 yang ade kat K9 nih.

Surau

Surau agak menarik, ade aircond sume tapi sayang nya tiada penghuni. So far penantian ku untuk solat jemaah masih berakhir dengan kehampaan even for solat asar. Lepas solat, tadarus aku pun on9 sat. Alhamdulillah dapat connect ke internet.

Time magrib aku pegi ke surau n Alhamdulillah ade jemaah. Rasanya org timur tengah. So aku pun solat jemaah. Bile habis nya, brothers in islam 3 orang itu pun beri salam. Lepas jawab salam diorg pun terus bangun n solat sunat… then pegi. Sedih gak, baru nk tambah kenalan. Tapi takpe ah… Time solat isyak sekali lagi kekosongan… sedih…

Surau ni terletak kat centre Kolej kediaman nih, skali ngan office ngan hall. Tapi time kunjungan aku for solat Isyak.. hall sume dah kosong gak.. cuak gak.

Wireless WIFI

Alhamdulillah, so far connection boleh dapat dimana-mana. Dalam bilik, tandas,taman,surau.. mana2 ah sekitar kolej kediaman. Alhamdulillah.

Accommodation

Alhamdulillah, bilik besar dan lampu kipas sume nya berfungsi. Bilik air dekat je and sume kemudahan berada dalam keadaan baik.

People

Hurm. ni mustahak. Apparently student UM ni tgh semester break. So majoriti pulang ke kampung/bandar halaman. So patutlah kawasan nih sunyi tak rmai org. isk2 borink sungguh. Sampai malam nih aku baru jumpa 8 orang je rasenye… sedih + seram gak ah… Alhamdulilah ade internet n ym leh ar borak2 skit ngan ikwah2 yang dikasihi. rOOMate aku, FRED KMB year 1 (nk masuk year 2) ni tah pegi mana plak tah.. tadi call kate pukul 11mlm baru balik… sigh. Participant lain aku tak tau dorunk nyer bilik kat mana… mmg menyedihkan…

fOOD

Ni satu masalah lagi. Sebab university cuti, catering sume tutup. Dan takde kedai makan langsung!!!!!!!!! Ya Allah.. Diri ini dah takut nnti sakit perut or wutsoever… hurm bile dah petang perut aku pun mula sakit sbb tak lunch lagi. Diri ini pun decide kuar dari bilik cari makan… kuar saje kampus, persekitaran mmg menarik. Diri ini berjalan menyusuri jalan yang diteduhi oleh rimbun pokok ciptaan ilahi. Perasaan yang tenang kembali menghiasi hati yang sepi dan perut yang sakit tadi. MasyaAllah, cantik dan indah sungguh ciptaanNya.

Sampai sahaja ke jalan besar, diri ini naik bingung… Jalan yang jauh tidak diketahui penghujungnya penuh dengan kereta2. Diri ini terus berjalan sehingga akhirnya menjumpai KFC.

Ya Allah… dah takde makanan lain dah ke…

Lama juga diri ini berfikir… Sejak anjakan paradigma Dicember lalu, diri ini cume pernah masuk ke KFC hanya sekali. Patutkah diri ini masuk dah buat rekod kali ke-2 mkn KFC yang sedang diri ini berusaha memboikotnya. Lama berfikir, diri ini pun akhirnya mengambil keputusan untuk masuk ke restoran tersebut… diri ini meng-order makanan  dan selesai membeli, meneruskan perjalanan pulang. ( Faez MO7G mungkin sedang tergelak sekiranya dia membaca post ini…)

Dalam perjalanan pulang, diri ini terbayang ikwah2 lain yang sedang berada di pulau pinang dalam program Jaulah Semenanjung. Mungkin mereka sedang merasai Radix Fried Chicken (RFC) di seberang prai tempat Pokcik selalu pergi sekarang ini. sigh, sedihnya kerana tidak dapat join antum sekalian…

Maka diri ini pun pulang dan menjamah makanan yang ade… dalam hati memamg dah risau. Sebulan hidup di sini tak kn nk makan KFC!!! duit poket yang diberi pun cume rm15 sehari je… Ya Allah semoga dipermudahkan kehidupan hambaMu ini…

So far tu je ah yang berlaku on first day diri ini untuk IChO training 2009.

‘Clean’ sungguhkah kita?

” Sesungguhnya orang-orang yang bertakwa apabila mereka dibayang-bayangi fikiran jahat (berbuat dosa) dari setan, mereka pun segera ingat kepada Allah, maka ketika itu juga mereka melihat (kesalahan-kesalahannya)” 7:201

Dosa? rasanye budak tadika pun dapat memahami dengan jelas makna “Dosa”. Setiap hari kita merentasi masa kurnian tuhan dengan bermacam ragam. Ada yang menarik , hambar mahupun menyedihkan. Pastinya, sebagai seorang muslim, kita mengharapkan hanya satu kesudahan yakni pahalaNya. Dosa ni secara logik diakal tiada siapa pun yang mahu. Namun hakikatnya kita tidak dapat lari daripada melakukan dosa. Even orang yang bertakwa pun boleh dibayangi dengan fikiran jahat. (rujuk ayat diatas)

Setiap individu pasti akan melakukan dosa. Sikit atau banyak, besar atau kecil. Kita tak dapt melarikan diri drpd hakikat ini. Hurmmm sadis sekali…

So then, adakah kita hanya perlu menyedari hakikat ini dah berasa sedih akannya? berasa kesal dengan dosa2 yang bergelimpangan sampai nk kering air mata semata-mata(itu pun kalo sempat sedar)? Well, there’s more than that.

Hakikat ini menyedarkan manusia betapa pentingnya bermuhasabah diri dan merancang tindakan yang selanjutnya. InsyaAllah diri ini yakin ramai sahabat2 diluar sana termasuk golongan yang ditujukan seperti ayat daripada surah Al-A’raf diatas. Alhamdulillah, Allah yang maha mengasihi telah menjanjikan kesedaran bagi mereka yang bertakwa tatkala hampir melakukan dosa. NAMUN, hanya bagi mereka yang BERTAKWA. So, sekiranya kita lalai dan terus melakukan suatu dosa, bermuhasabahlah selagi mampu, banyak yang boleh dibetulkan sebenarnya( Even kita mungkin tak sedar apa kesalahan kita). Contoh yang termudah adalah mengikut firman Allah 29:45

Bacalah kitab (Alquran) yang telah diwahyukan kepadamu (Muhammad) dan laksanakanlah solat. Sesungguhnya solat itu mencegah dari (perbuatan) keji dan mungkar. Dan (ketahuilah) mengingat Allah (solat) itu lebih besar ( keutamaannya dari ibadah yang lain). Allah mengetahui apa yang kamu kerjakan.

The first thing yang kita patut teliti semula is our Solat. Apa cacat celanya? apa silap nya? these are some questions we should ask ourselve. Bila solat terjaga insyaAllah kita akan dicegah dari perbuatan keji dan mungkar.

So kesimpulannya disini, kita haruslah:

1) Muhasabah diri kita ( cheak silap dan salah), adakah kita termasuk mereka yag bertakwa (Adakah kita cepat sedar akan kesilapan dan dosa kita).

2) PLAN and ACT. tak guna sekadar menginsafi tanpa perancangan mengelakkan dari mengulagi kesilapan. And of course, ACTion lebey penting.

Wslm…

The beginning of everything

Yup rite, the beginning of everything. 23rd May 2009 marked another important event in my life- The day i ended my IB diploma program. Thanks to the All mighty, i managed to end the examination quite well. May He will reward all of us IB 07/09 students with the best result.

So here goes, the beginning of everything, the beginning of life after 2 years of tarbiyah in KMB. As one challenge goes down, here comes another one, perhaps a tougher one.

Currently I’m still in KMB spending the remaining hours with my beloved ikhwah… Thanks a lot to them, I’ll be bringing home lots of memorable memory.huhuh even now, i can already predict how sad i will be without them. Hurm…..

Well, maybe thats for now, a post which indicates my return to the online blogging world. InsyaAllah, this few months of holiday will allow me to post more important and meaningful messages to ikhwah and akhowat out there. WSLM

Malam paling koyak???

I guess the title won’t be to catchy. After all, it’s my habit to say things like ” weh aku ngah koyak nih, hahha” to my friends out of nowhere when i met them. Serve me right, since 2nite, i deserved what i used to tell them >>> Koyaks

Referring to the date in which i posted this, it is undeniably true that some of my friends would know exactly the reasons for this very post. But yes, politely i asked them not to spoil the story to others, remain unnoticed and think as you are doing me a favor, a really important one.

So that was what happen. I’m not physically challenged, but rather emotionally. So far the most threatening of all. I was moved negatively by a short story of 2 hours and 30 minutes, the solution of a never noticed puzzle, and ultimately, a short story of nearly everything.

To others, it was nothing and meaningless. It should not be dragged to far until it come into my post(after months of silence). Yes, some said it is a rather gibberish matter and the acts of ever being bothered by it, would downgrade you. Oh thank you.

So should the story be spoiled here? perhaps not. To a friend who have been so supprotive and soothing this past few hours, thank you so much. It has been so helpful. So what with this post actually? Does it merely act as a medium to channel my obvious immaturity of looking at things? Oh, surely not.

So here goes, i always believe that people would have their own weak point, if touched directly there, would result in excruciating pain, be it emotionally or physically. So why would such a weak point exist? to let others hurt ya? or simply allowing you to realize how such a weakling you are. I would agree with the latter. No matter how tough you may look, this weak point exists. haha, so is there anything to be ashamed of? Nah, you better not. Besides, be grateful for it and appreciate this gift.

Weakness = Gift

I believe up to this point, many would laugh at me for such nuisance thinking. How absurd eh? to actually say a weakness would act as a gift. Just how is it possible for something that would bring you down should be treated as a gift? Well, to me, it is possible.

Apakah manusia mengira bahawa mereka akan dibiarkan hanya dengan mengatakan, ” kami telah beriman,” dan mereka tidak diuji? Al-Ankabut:2

Allow me to drag the discussion into another topic which i guess is related and need to be explained first. I’ll get back to this ” Weakness = gift ” discussion for sure. Based  on the verse  i quoted just now, clearly it shows how crucial is the role of ujian. Not that it is simply to hurt you in so many angle, but to test you. To differentiate those of the believers and those who are not. This ujian of Allah comes in many ways, unique to his knowing that would suit the receiver the best. Unique in a way that some may not think something would act as a ujian while others may think it is. His Ujian would vary with His creations, one that would hit the receiver correctly to touch hime/her on several aspects as He wanted. Nevertheless, it is our job to apprectiate it and those who take it correctly, would insyaAllah be rewarded successively.

So think again brothers and sisters, have you been tested before? Perhaps a larger proportion would say “yes” compared to “no”. Yet, how many would say they receive the ujian the right way? Well, nobody actually know though.

I’ve witness many immature acts of people who become outrageous over a test put upon them. They tend to blame others where in worse case, they blame the fate itself. Unfortunately, I’ve been in that lousiness once or twice, in which i regretted ever since. Praise to the Almighty, I can still act rationally and didn’t blame the fate for His doing though for couple of times, I’m deeply tested emotionally. And yes, at this point, it is advisable for everyone to check over the quote of Allah below,

Diwajibkan atas kamu berperang, padahal itu tidak menyenangkan bagimu. Tetapi boleh jadi kamu tidak menyenangi sesuatu, padahal itu baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal itu tidak baik bagimu. Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu TIDAK mengetahui. Albaqarah:216

Simply put, there are many things in which we don’t know yet we tend to think that we soooooo know about it. Hold back brothers and sisters, Allah never lies and the quote should remain as our guidance.

As I promised, I’ll get back to the Weakness = gift discussion. I’m aware that each of us would have our own unique way of looking at things, but please bear with me on this one. When I say that we should treat our own weakness as a gift, what i really mean is we should not let it be a hindrance to our path ahead. Instead, whenever we are tested on our weakness, look at it as a gift, a gift from Allah to differentiate us from the believers or the non believers. And yes, with this sentence, it also means that the weakness could differentiate us into the group of non true believers. Again, this depends on how we perceive and act upon it. If we look at this weakness as something that naturally IN US and let it control us, then we are much likely to book our tickets to dungeon which is meant for failures.

So when we look at this weakness as a gift, we should think of a wise way to overcome it or to be strong whenever we are tested by it. We should not merely accept it as our naturally-born-weakness-meant-for-us kind of thing. As we accept tests from Him with redha, no matter how hard it hits our weaknesses, insyaAllah, we are already on the right track.

Brothers and sisters, as i continue this post, I’m truly aware how much the message is beneficial to me and insyaAllah to all of you as well. With the title, ” Malam paling koyak???” it’s obvious that I’m having quite a hard time and hopefully with this post, it would help me as well as readers out there. Thanks to Him, I’m pretty okay now, though there’s a bit of emotional things that try to hit me from so many angle. Heh, let it be. Before I end this happen-to-be-my-longest-post so far, hereby is another crucial quote from Him that we should always remember,

Setiap bencana yang menimpa di bumi dan yang menimpa dirimu sendiri, semuanya telah tertulis dalam kitab(Lauh Mahfuz) sebelum kami mewujudkannya. Sungguh Ynag demikian itu mudah bagi Allah.

Agar kamu tidak bersedih hati terhadap apa yang luput dari kamu, dan tidak pula terlalu gembira terhadap apa yang diberikan-Nya kepadamu. Dan Allah tidak menyukai setiap orang yang sombong dan membangga diri. Al-Hadid 22-23

Wslm.

The Untold Story of Something

Once Upon a time in a kingdom not far away, there lives a boy who …… alright cut the craps out, here goes The Untold Story of Something…

This is the second sequel of a drama series of 3 actors, in which the actors are some what good friends. ‘You’ are one of them, that pathetically don’t realize that ‘you’ are actually not the main actor. So The ‘you’ acts with the story, always thinking that he is the main actor. Oh well, how sad. So came this one night, The ‘you’ talk with one of the audience who apparently enjoy the story. This audience is a very loyal one, who has been watching since the first episode. “Nice one” said The ‘you’. ” I never thought you ever watch it! haha” The ‘you’ added.The ‘you’ is talking happily with This Loyal Audience. They exchange thoughts on the story, things which they like in common. But well, that’s only the first part of the conversation. There’s more coming.

This Loyal Audience started to feel weird. The ‘you’ talk as if he’s the leading actor in the drama though This Loyal Audience know his is not. So they the conversation became a bit awkward, until the audience confess that he never watched the first sequel of the drama. He demands for The ‘you’ to tell him of the first sequel. He threatened that he won’t tell The ‘you’ some other important things he know of the story. The ‘you’ somehow resist to tell him at about the first sequel at first. He don’t like it. Besides, he hates it since in the show he IS NOT the leading actor and he knows that pretty well. In fact, he only acted on the last episode of the series.

So finally, The ‘you’ decides to tell him the story of the first sequel. And yes, by the look of it, it seems like the second sequel should start with The ‘you’ as the leading actor. The first sequel of the drama ends rather tragically for the leading actor but rather wonderfully for the ‘you’ who is not the leading actor. And in the second sequel, the previous leading actor do not act AT ALL. So that’s where The ‘you’ assumption comes from. He sooo believe that he should be the leading actor for the second sequel.

After what seems to be a rather sad confession from The ‘you’, This Loyal Audience of the second sequel starts to talk of his opinion. He thinks that The ‘you’ is STILL a non leading actor for the second sequel. Oh how sad. He expresses his view and The ‘you’ listen diligently. This audience also added that his thoughts is also the views of some other loyal audience to. He thought that The Another actor for this second sequel is actually the main actor. The ‘you’ starts to object with some justifications obviously. He said in this scene, bla2 and that scene bla2.

This Loyal Audience thinks for awhile, gives his view and to The ‘you’ utmost surprise, he don’t remember such a scene. He’s in doubt. Not to This Loyal Audience, but to himself. He do remember that he did not attend some part of the shooting and perhaps thats why he doesn’t know of the part which this audience is talking about. Started to feel disappointed, he agreed to listen more to views from This Loyal audience.

One by one, his tears of feeling rejected falls down his dry cheek. He started to believe This Loyal Audience and one by one, he realized that in some scene in which The Another actor is acting with the Third Lovely actor, it does prove that he is most likely the non leading actor. Like waterfall of blood, his tears continues to flow but not in the eyes of this Audience. Everything seems to make sense now to the ‘you’. The script from the Third Lovely actor, the weird action of The Another actor. Everything~

Suddenly, This Loyal Audience tell him not to worry. Somehow, from his observation on the past episodes of the seconds sequel( Yes, the sequel has not finished yet) he thinks that The Director is very intelligent with this show. “Huh?” sighed the sad The ‘you’. This audience confess that he thinks the non leading actor will somehow won the spotlight of the show, instead of The Another actor who is the leading actor. “Weird eh?” said This Audience. He somehow believes that the show will actually and in fact, already going to be The ‘you’ show. He continues with his views but this time the view is not based on previous episodes scenes, but rather on his ‘humanly’ sense. He says that eventually The ‘you’ will take all the credits along with the Third Lovely actor.

Expectedly, The ‘you’ starts to stop his pathetic falling tears. This Audience somehow continues, ‘ I honestly would favor The Another actor to win the spotlight and remains as the leading actor. Yet, we never know the decision of The intelligent Director. He, knows the best.” And there goes the story of the second sequel of a drama series regarding three actors, The Another actor, The ‘you’ and the Third Lovely actor.

Well, a good story should always comes with a lesson. The morale of the story should be, the final decision actually is in the hands of The Intelligent Director, instead of worrying, The ‘you’ should start entertain The Intelligent Director and prays for the best. THE END~

We are all human

RM16.80 airtime

26 hours and 35 minutes

Energy

Frustration

Anger

Disappointment

I got those

When i was searching for a book.