Malam paling koyak??? Saturday, Mar 21 2009

I guess the title won’t be to catchy. After all, it’s my habit to say things like ” weh aku ngah koyak nih, hahha” to my friends out of nowhere when i met them. Serve me right, since 2nite, i deserved what i used to tell them >>> Koyaks

Referring to the date in which i posted this, it is undeniably true that some of my friends would know exactly the reasons for this very post. But yes, politely i asked them not to spoil the story to others, remain unnoticed and think as you are doing me a favor, a really important one.

So that was what happen. I’m not physically challenged, but rather emotionally. So far the most threatening of all. I was moved negatively by a short story of 2 hours and 30 minutes, the solution of a never noticed puzzle, and ultimately, a short story of nearly everything.

To others, it was nothing and meaningless. It should not be dragged to far until it come into my post(after months of silence). Yes, some said it is a rather gibberish matter and the acts of ever being bothered by it, would downgrade you. Oh thank you.

So should the story be spoiled here? perhaps not. To a friend who have been so supprotive and soothing this past few hours, thank you so much. It has been so helpful. So what with this post actually? Does it merely act as a medium to channel my obvious immaturity of looking at things? Oh, surely not.

So here goes, i always believe that people would have their own weak point, if touched directly there, would result in excruciating pain, be it emotionally or physically. So why would such a weak point exist? to let others hurt ya? or simply allowing you to realize how such a weakling you are. I would agree with the latter. No matter how tough you may look, this weak point exists. haha, so is there anything to be ashamed of? Nah, you better not. Besides, be grateful for it and appreciate this gift.

Weakness = Gift

I believe up to this point, many would laugh at me for such nuisance thinking. How absurd eh? to actually say a weakness would act as a gift. Just how is it possible for something that would bring you down should be treated as a gift? Well, to me, it is possible.

Apakah manusia mengira bahawa mereka akan dibiarkan hanya dengan mengatakan, ” kami telah beriman,” dan mereka tidak diuji? Al-Ankabut:2

Allow me to drag the discussion into another topic which i guess is related and need to be explained first. I’ll get back to this ” Weakness = gift ” discussion for sure. Based  on the verse  i quoted just now, clearly it shows how crucial is the role of ujian. Not that it is simply to hurt you in so many angle, but to test you. To differentiate those of the believers and those who are not. This ujian of Allah comes in many ways, unique to his knowing that would suit the receiver the best. Unique in a way that some may not think something would act as a ujian while others may think it is. His Ujian would vary with His creations, one that would hit the receiver correctly to touch hime/her on several aspects as He wanted. Nevertheless, it is our job to apprectiate it and those who take it correctly, would insyaAllah be rewarded successively.

So think again brothers and sisters, have you been tested before? Perhaps a larger proportion would say “yes” compared to “no”. Yet, how many would say they receive the ujian the right way? Well, nobody actually know though.

I’ve witness many immature acts of people who become outrageous over a test put upon them. They tend to blame others where in worse case, they blame the fate itself. Unfortunately, I’ve been in that lousiness once or twice, in which i regretted ever since. Praise to the Almighty, I can still act rationally and didn’t blame the fate for His doing though for couple of times, I’m deeply tested emotionally. And yes, at this point, it is advisable for everyone to check over the quote of Allah below,

Diwajibkan atas kamu berperang, padahal itu tidak menyenangkan bagimu. Tetapi boleh jadi kamu tidak menyenangi sesuatu, padahal itu baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal itu tidak baik bagimu. Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu TIDAK mengetahui. Albaqarah:216

Simply put, there are many things in which we don’t know yet we tend to think that we soooooo know about it. Hold back brothers and sisters, Allah never lies and the quote should remain as our guidance.

As I promised, I’ll get back to the Weakness = gift discussion. I’m aware that each of us would have our own unique way of looking at things, but please bear with me on this one. When I say that we should treat our own weakness as a gift, what i really mean is we should not let it be a hindrance to our path ahead. Instead, whenever we are tested on our weakness, look at it as a gift, a gift from Allah to differentiate us from the believers or the non believers. And yes, with this sentence, it also means that the weakness could differentiate us into the group of non true believers. Again, this depends on how we perceive and act upon it. If we look at this weakness as something that naturally IN US and let it control us, then we are much likely to book our tickets to dungeon which is meant for failures.

So when we look at this weakness as a gift, we should think of a wise way to overcome it or to be strong whenever we are tested by it. We should not merely accept it as our naturally-born-weakness-meant-for-us kind of thing. As we accept tests from Him with redha, no matter how hard it hits our weaknesses, insyaAllah, we are already on the right track.

Brothers and sisters, as i continue this post, I’m truly aware how much the message is beneficial to me and insyaAllah to all of you as well. With the title, ” Malam paling koyak???” it’s obvious that I’m having quite a hard time and hopefully with this post, it would help me as well as readers out there. Thanks to Him, I’m pretty okay now, though there’s a bit of emotional things that try to hit me from so many angle. Heh, let it be. Before I end this happen-to-be-my-longest-post so far, hereby is another crucial quote from Him that we should always remember,

Setiap bencana yang menimpa di bumi dan yang menimpa dirimu sendiri, semuanya telah tertulis dalam kitab(Lauh Mahfuz) sebelum kami mewujudkannya. Sungguh Ynag demikian itu mudah bagi Allah.

Agar kamu tidak bersedih hati terhadap apa yang luput dari kamu, dan tidak pula terlalu gembira terhadap apa yang diberikan-Nya kepadamu. Dan Allah tidak menyukai setiap orang yang sombong dan membangga diri. Al-Hadid 22-23

Wslm.

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The Untold Story of Something Saturday, Mar 21 2009

Once Upon a time in a kingdom not far away, there lives a boy who …… alright cut the craps out, here goes The Untold Story of Something…

This is the second sequel of a drama series of 3 actors, in which the actors are some what good friends. ‘You’ are one of them, that pathetically don’t realize that ‘you’ are actually not the main actor. So The ‘you’ acts with the story, always thinking that he is the main actor. Oh well, how sad. So came this one night, The ‘you’ talk with one of the audience who apparently enjoy the story. This audience is a very loyal one, who has been watching since the first episode. “Nice one” said The ‘you’. ” I never thought you ever watch it! haha” The ‘you’ added.The ‘you’ is talking happily with This Loyal Audience. They exchange thoughts on the story, things which they like in common. But well, that’s only the first part of the conversation. There’s more coming.

This Loyal Audience started to feel weird. The ‘you’ talk as if he’s the leading actor in the drama though This Loyal Audience know his is not. So they the conversation became a bit awkward, until the audience confess that he never watched the first sequel of the drama. He demands for The ‘you’ to tell him of the first sequel. He threatened that he won’t tell The ‘you’ some other important things he know of the story. The ‘you’ somehow resist to tell him at about the first sequel at first. He don’t like it. Besides, he hates it since in the show he IS NOT the leading actor and he knows that pretty well. In fact, he only acted on the last episode of the series.

So finally, The ‘you’ decides to tell him the story of the first sequel. And yes, by the look of it, it seems like the second sequel should start with The ‘you’ as the leading actor. The first sequel of the drama ends rather tragically for the leading actor but rather wonderfully for the ‘you’ who is not the leading actor. And in the second sequel, the previous leading actor do not act AT ALL. So that’s where The ‘you’ assumption comes from. He sooo believe that he should be the leading actor for the second sequel.

After what seems to be a rather sad confession from The ‘you’, This Loyal Audience of the second sequel starts to talk of his opinion. He thinks that The ‘you’ is STILL a non leading actor for the second sequel. Oh how sad. He expresses his view and The ‘you’ listen diligently. This audience also added that his thoughts is also the views of some other loyal audience to. He thought that The Another actor for this second sequel is actually the main actor. The ‘you’ starts to object with some justifications obviously. He said in this scene, bla2 and that scene bla2.

This Loyal Audience thinks for awhile, gives his view and to The ‘you’ utmost surprise, he don’t remember such a scene. He’s in doubt. Not to This Loyal Audience, but to himself. He do remember that he did not attend some part of the shooting and perhaps thats why he doesn’t know of the part which this audience is talking about. Started to feel disappointed, he agreed to listen more to views from This Loyal audience.

One by one, his tears of feeling rejected falls down his dry cheek. He started to believe This Loyal Audience and one by one, he realized that in some scene in which The Another actor is acting with the Third Lovely actor, it does prove that he is most likely the non leading actor. Like waterfall of blood, his tears continues to flow but not in the eyes of this Audience. Everything seems to make sense now to the ‘you’. The script from the Third Lovely actor, the weird action of The Another actor. Everything~

Suddenly, This Loyal Audience tell him not to worry. Somehow, from his observation on the past episodes of the seconds sequel( Yes, the sequel has not finished yet) he thinks that The Director is very intelligent with this show. “Huh?” sighed the sad The ‘you’. This audience confess that he thinks the non leading actor will somehow won the spotlight of the show, instead of The Another actor who is the leading actor. “Weird eh?” said This Audience. He somehow believes that the show will actually and in fact, already going to be The ‘you’ show. He continues with his views but this time the view is not based on previous episodes scenes, but rather on his ‘humanly’ sense. He says that eventually The ‘you’ will take all the credits along with the Third Lovely actor.

Expectedly, The ‘you’ starts to stop his pathetic falling tears. This Audience somehow continues, ‘ I honestly would favor The Another actor to win the spotlight and remains as the leading actor. Yet, we never know the decision of The intelligent Director. He, knows the best.” And there goes the story of the second sequel of a drama series regarding three actors, The Another actor, The ‘you’ and the Third Lovely actor.

Well, a good story should always comes with a lesson. The morale of the story should be, the final decision actually is in the hands of The Intelligent Director, instead of worrying, The ‘you’ should start entertain The Intelligent Director and prays for the best. THE END~

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