Diwajibkan atas kamu berperang, padahal itu tidak menyenangkan bagimu. Tetapi boleh jadi kamu tidak menyenangi sesuatu, padahal itu baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal itu tidak baik bagimu. Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu TIDAK mengetahui. Albaqarah:216

Ada masanya kehidupan kita ini boleh dikatakan tipikal. Namun ada masanya ia menjadi sangat menarik. Unik mungkin. What ever it is, this is the road that Allah has decide for us to use. Sebagai hambanya, perjalanan ini haruslah sentiasa ditempuhi degan sabar, dan diniatkan hanya keranaNya.

Perhaps post ini adalah sedikit personal, tapi saya rasa ia perlu dibuat. Sebagai renungan, sebagai tatapan para ikhwah dan boleh jadi explanation untuk suatu fakta yang.. tidak benar mungkin pada saat ini…

Segalanya bermula di.. hurm of course UM(UNIVERSITY MALAYA). To be exact, di bilik Dr. Sharifudin bersama rakan seperjuangan yang insyaAllah akan ke cambridge kira2 3 minggu dari sekarang. Meeting ini dimulakan dengan kata-kata aluan dari pada dr…

” Sometimes,human tend to get agitated easily. An issue may excites human being from a normal quantum state, n=1 to an excited state n>1(but n is integer). The transition energy could be of as high as the Electronic transition. How funny, we are actually acting like a single electron in a system though the fact is, we are made of millions or perhaps, trillions of them. This is the system we are facing at the moment. When the scientist who made the remarkable discovery of electron transition due to interaction with electromagnetic wave, which became the basic of modern spectroscopy, they are hail by the scientific community. This ‘Agitation’ of electron is a meaningful theory, solving plenty of problems human yet to discover. However, today’s human agitation due to issues cause us to be REJECTED PATHETICALLY. Rejected by a community of a higher order.”    (Ada sedikit tokok tambah berlaku) “

Saya macam dah sedikit paham maksud yang cuba disampaikan oleh lecturer physical chemistry itu. Namun hati ini masih cuba menafikan kenyataan yang bakal dikhabarkan olehnya… Namun segalanya sia2. Everything changes when he made the anoucement…

” Sad to say, We are not going to Cambridge this year.”

And the meeting ended a minute later with goodbyeS and goodluckS

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I was on my way for the friday prayer that moment, when my unsatisfied mind keeps the story still rolling…

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Saya mengimbau kembali tempoh tiga minggu yang telah berlalu di UM. Banyak yang telah berlaku, dan banyak yang telah menyedarkan diri ini akan kesilapan yang selalu dilakukan. So far, dengan bantuan2 lecturer yang sy rs terbaik in chemistry telah membuka mata saya akn kehebatan Allah s.w.t.

The intelligent postulation by Schrodinger, with a help from De Broglie’s hypothesis have lead to a remarkable discovery in quantum mechanic. Allah’s unimaginable creation of electron that exhibits both the property of a particle and a wave, could only be track and made good use by mere postulation by this scientist. Surprisingly though, this postulation works. MasyaAllah.

I’ve learn so much so far. And really i hope i can spread the knowledge to Muslims out there if given the chance…

YET,

Many i have missed in the pursuit of knowledge. The fact that i have missed the one an only chance of traveling around the country with my beloved ikhwah is unbearable…. there’s more, but maybe i should just stop the whining.

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I guess i made this clear. I’m most probably not going to cambridge for the ICHO this year regardless all the hard work. The ministry of education have just confirmed that they would  NOT approve any Malaysia’s team for any competitions due to the H1N1 mayhem.

Sukan Asia, Mathematics Olympiad in germany, Physics Olympiad in Mexico and yes, Chemistry Olympiad in UK.. i think there’s more people out there who share the same lament as i am.

I have contacted syafiq( Maths olympiad,classmate) and confirmed it with him as well.

It’s all beyond our control….

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And yes, those are my thoughts back then just before i realized something regarding this plot He had decided for me, much2 earlier.

Plot kehidupan aku sangat unik

Percaturan OlehNya bagi menyusun jalan kehidupan aku sangat lah teliti dan alhamdulillah, ia sememangnya yang terbaik untuk ku InsyaAllah. Aku hanya mampu tersenyum sekarang. 3 minggu aku menuntut ilmu dan menambah pengalaman yang berharga dan hanya 3 hari aku digembirakan dengan kenyataan aku terpilih dalam Team Malaysia for ICHO 2009 dan pastiyya, ada sesuatu di sebalik ketentuan itu. I guess this is the time to get my self back on track, to further focus on my TOP priorithy.

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Kepada sahabat2 yang sering membantu diri ini sepanjang berada di UM, baik secara physical atau emosi :P , Kepada Ummi fauziah,Puan Punia, Puan Rozlina yang sangat2 motivating i couldn’t say more than,

I’M SORRY

To SOME OF MOST IMPORTANT PEOPLE who i called informing them bout the news that i was selected,

I’M SORRY

And to chem (roommate)

It seems like i won’t be the first one to tinjau2 medan dakwah UK,

InsyaAllah kita kena tinjau sama2 when the time for us to REALLY FLY, comes.