Free Hood Around The World Thursday, Oct 15 2009

With tiredness all around me during the first PASS session, i’ve decided to get back home as soon as the session ended. I hardly remember all my group mates which i believe is ‘okay’ since it’s common for a first meeting. Yet, the incident happenned later proved that the seemingly common belief is not always acceptable…

An incident i reckon i should share..

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I was walking rather swiftly when somebody tap me on the back and pause the pace.

” Hi, we’re from the same group, what’s your name?”

“‘I’m Muhammad”

“Oh, So you the one”

“huh?”

“I’m a Muslim too, really nice to meet you!”

For a moment, i smiled and it seems like all my severe tiredness faded away…

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Bounce back up front Friday, Aug 21 2009

” Ala, Ira baru dah semangat nak puasa esok, tapi dah takleh puasa”

” Hahaha, padan muka takleh puasa esok”

Seketika selepas conversation tersebut dengan ira, aku terpikir sejenak tentang ketibaan hari esok, hari paling bermakna insyaAllah, pembuka bulan penuh barakah yang dinantikan sejak 11 bulan yang lalu.

Yup, pasti ramai ikhwah & akhowat di luar sana yang sedang menantikan hari esok, masakan adek aku yang berumur 13 tahun pun turut menantikannya. Ia bulan yang paling bermakna padaku tahun lepas, dan insyaAllah aku mengharapkan yang TERBAIK pada tahun ini.

Bila difikirkan caturan masa olehNya, sekali lagi aku bersyukur yang amat sangat padaNya. Setelah hampir 3 bulan meninggalkan KMB tercinta, banyak perubahan yang baik mahupun yang buruk telah berlaku pada diri ini. Yang baik itu syukur padanya, tapi yang teruk itu, MasyaAllah. Merujuk pada post2 sebelum ini, aku banyak menghadapi saat2 genting yang mengacau serta melukakan hati ini. Alhamdulillah, kedatangan bulan ini membawa satu azam dan semangat yang tak dapat digambarkan mantapnya!

Tiada lagi insyaAllah saat koyak, yang ada hanya pengisian hati dengan Cinta padaNya. Ya Allah bantulah diri ini!

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Besides, the fact that i’m most probably be flying of to Manchester UK on 17th of september, which is at the end of the month really touches my heart. Not because of being unable to celebrate Aidil Fitri with the family, but being able to REBOUNCE my self back on this month before going of for a mission very crucial, a mission made responsibled by Him to every believers out there.

Hopefully ikhwah/akhowat out there will take this chance to improve ourselves and make this ramadhan the best ever, yet!

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Alhamdulillah, tarawikh telah selesai saat diri ini melengkapkan post kali ini. Lafaz merdu bacaan ayat suci alquran daripada imam yang diiringi dengan limpahan hujan rahmat daripadaNya membuka semangat ramadhan kali ini. InsyaAllah, hanya penambahan iman dan pemantapan takwa yang didoakn oleh diri ini pada ikhwah/akhowat di luar sana.

Salam ramadhan buat muslim seluruh dunia

* jgn ada yang lupa niat puase plak eh

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Protected: A quote from my math teacher Monday, Aug 17 2009

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S.0.S Wednesday, Jul 22 2009

I still remember vividly two years ago when i first listened to this song. Back then, i was in Kolej Matrikulasi Negeri Sembilan, spending my time wisely while waiting for the Mara Overseas Sponsorship result to be released. I know at the moment that i will like this song, though i don’t really like some parts of the lyrics…

A month later i was admitted to Kolej MARA Banting, expecting to have a memorable two years there before going off to UK. It was during the orientation week closing event when the song is on air again, sang brianliatly by a group of my colleagues. I enjoyed the moment and chearfully sang the song along with other newbie KMB students. Well, at that moment i had already jeopardise the lyrics by changing some of them to that which satisfied me. I changed the chorus a bit and mentioned it to kamal(cem) which suprisingly, satisfied him too.

Yet, while we were singing the song along, i noticed a girl friend of mine singing it too. I never expected her to sing the song whole-heartedly, as if she was getting herself into the lyrics. I smiled and stop singing it my way. Perhaps one day i would sing it like her, without changing the lyrics….

And I guess that day, is today…

♣

Hapus Aku

Tuliskan kesedihan, semua tak bisa kau ungkapkan

dalam tinta kau bicara

dengan hatiku

Buang semua puisi

antara kita berdua

kau perlu lihat sesuatu yang ku sebut itu cinta

Yakinkan aku tuhan dia bukan milikku,

biarkan waktu, waktu,

Hapus Aku,

Sedarkan aku tuhan

dia bukan milikku

biarkan waktu, waktu

Hapus aku…

♥

Credit to Nidji For The Song~

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Kisah UM saya hari ini~ Saturday, Jun 27 2009

Diwajibkan atas kamu berperang, padahal itu tidak menyenangkan bagimu. Tetapi boleh jadi kamu tidak menyenangi sesuatu, padahal itu baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal itu tidak baik bagimu. Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu TIDAK mengetahui. Albaqarah:216

Ada masanya kehidupan kita ini boleh dikatakan tipikal. Namun ada masanya ia menjadi sangat menarik. Unik mungkin. What ever it is, this is the road that Allah has decide for us to use. Sebagai hambanya, perjalanan ini haruslah sentiasa ditempuhi degan sabar, dan diniatkan hanya keranaNya.

Perhaps post ini adalah sedikit personal, tapi saya rasa ia perlu dibuat. Sebagai renungan, sebagai tatapan para ikhwah dan boleh jadi explanation untuk suatu fakta yang.. tidak benar mungkin pada saat ini…

Segalanya bermula di.. hurm of course UM(UNIVERSITY MALAYA). To be exact, di bilik Dr. Sharifudin bersama rakan seperjuangan yang insyaAllah akan ke cambridge kira2 3 minggu dari sekarang. Meeting ini dimulakan dengan kata-kata aluan dari pada dr…

” Sometimes,human tend to get agitated easily. An issue may excites human being from a normal quantum state, n=1 to an excited state n>1(but n is integer). The transition energy could be of as high as the Electronic transition. How funny, we are actually acting like a single electron in a system though the fact is, we are made of millions or perhaps, trillions of them. This is the system we are facing at the moment. When the scientist who made the remarkable discovery of electron transition due to interaction with electromagnetic wave, which became the basic of modern spectroscopy, they are hail by the scientific community. This ‘Agitation’ of electron is a meaningful theory, solving plenty of problems human yet to discover. However, today’s human agitation due to issues cause us to be REJECTED PATHETICALLY. Rejected by a community of a higher order.”    (Ada sedikit tokok tambah berlaku) “

Saya macam dah sedikit paham maksud yang cuba disampaikan oleh lecturer physical chemistry itu. Namun hati ini masih cuba menafikan kenyataan yang bakal dikhabarkan olehnya… Namun segalanya sia2. Everything changes when he made the anoucement…

” Sad to say, We are not going to Cambridge this year.”

And the meeting ended a minute later with goodbyeS and goodluckS

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I was on my way for the friday prayer that moment, when my unsatisfied mind keeps the story still rolling…

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Saya mengimbau kembali tempoh tiga minggu yang telah berlalu di UM. Banyak yang telah berlaku, dan banyak yang telah menyedarkan diri ini akan kesilapan yang selalu dilakukan. So far, dengan bantuan2 lecturer yang sy rs terbaik in chemistry telah membuka mata saya akn kehebatan Allah s.w.t.

The intelligent postulation by Schrodinger, with a help from De Broglie’s hypothesis have lead to a remarkable discovery in quantum mechanic. Allah’s unimaginable creation of electron that exhibits both the property of a particle and a wave, could only be track and made good use by mere postulation by this scientist. Surprisingly though, this postulation works. MasyaAllah.

I’ve learn so much so far. And really i hope i can spread the knowledge to Muslims out there if given the chance…

YET,

Many i have missed in the pursuit of knowledge. The fact that i have missed the one an only chance of traveling around the country with my beloved ikhwah is unbearable…. there’s more, but maybe i should just stop the whining.

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I guess i made this clear. I’m most probably not going to cambridge for the ICHO this year regardless all the hard work. The ministry of education have just confirmed that they would  NOT approve any Malaysia’s team for any competitions due to the H1N1 mayhem.

Sukan Asia, Mathematics Olympiad in germany, Physics Olympiad in Mexico and yes, Chemistry Olympiad in UK.. i think there’s more people out there who share the same lament as i am.

I have contacted syafiq( Maths olympiad,classmate) and confirmed it with him as well.

It’s all beyond our control….

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And yes, those are my thoughts back then just before i realized something regarding this plot He had decided for me, much2 earlier.

Plot kehidupan aku sangat unik

Percaturan OlehNya bagi menyusun jalan kehidupan aku sangat lah teliti dan alhamdulillah, ia sememangnya yang terbaik untuk ku InsyaAllah. Aku hanya mampu tersenyum sekarang. 3 minggu aku menuntut ilmu dan menambah pengalaman yang berharga dan hanya 3 hari aku digembirakan dengan kenyataan aku terpilih dalam Team Malaysia for ICHO 2009 dan pastiyya, ada sesuatu di sebalik ketentuan itu. I guess this is the time to get my self back on track, to further focus on my TOP priorithy.

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Kepada sahabat2 yang sering membantu diri ini sepanjang berada di UM, baik secara physical atau emosi , Kepada Ummi fauziah,Puan Punia, Puan Rozlina yang sangat2 motivating i couldn’t say more than,

I’M SORRY

To SOME OF MOST IMPORTANT PEOPLE who i called informing them bout the news that i was selected,

I’M SORRY

And to chem (roommate)

It seems like i won’t be the first one to tinjau2 medan dakwah UK,

InsyaAllah kita kena tinjau sama2 when the time for us to REALLY FLY, comes.

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As I pay a visit… Sunday, Jun 14 2009

Back then in KMB, i used to have a habit which i guess some would not be pleased with it. But it’s okay, since i got something very meaningful from it. I actually learn something.

Some of my classmates and neighbours might have noticed this. I loved to spent my time in the class doing homeworks or pick up some books and add in valuable knowledge as much as i could. I did this mostly in my class, yet occasionally i did that too in the LRC or my room. Usually, when I’m in the class at late evening, it is already empty of students, leaving only me with my matters. As time passed by, I’ll get boring and my focus drop.

This is the moment when i’ll make my way on a little ‘visitation’. Yeah, I went to my neighbour’s classroom when there’s nobody inside. I know this may lead to something fishy, where some of you may think that i’m somewhat a thief or wutever, but don’t worry. I’m Not. Simply visiting others’ classes with no particular motive. As i mentioned before, i did this for a couple of times.

So here goes something. On my occasional visits, there’s one visit that i will always remember. This visitation took place in class M07*.  There’s nobody there, and i just walked around from table to table. Suddenly, something caught my eye.

On this table, there’s a crumpled paper which is arranged nicely at the conner end of the table. Being sensitive to a crumpled paper, all that’s left in my mind is to take it and throw it from distance into a bin. Being a bit addicted to basketball, my hands and mind will automatically being geared to a shooting position, whenever I get hold on such paper, items, or whatever. As I’m about to ‘shoot’ that crumpled paper, something just came in my mind telling me i should re-crumple it first. I hesitated, but soon decided to re crumple it. And yeah, i guess my thoughts are right this time. There’s a writing on it that really caught my attention.

****** kena tabah! sabar!

Alam nasyrah

Al baqarah:45

Al baqarah:216

Al hadid 22-23

Ad duha

I think i can still remember exactly what’s written on the paper… Perhaps there’s some part missing at the introduction. This person is talking to him/her self, calming him/her self. Yeah, During that moment, it was a time where almost all KMB IB students are physically and emotionally challenged with loads of assignments and works. I’m in that position too.

I checked and confirmed who this person was and i felt sorry to him/her. Somehow i know this person quite well yet i did not approach him/her to at least  say some encouraging words to him/her. But of course, he/she searched for Him compared to others and i believed He should have help him/her later. Alhamdulillah…

I learn quite a lot from this incident and i hope so as you.

wslm

p/s: I did not tell him/her that i actually came to him/her place and read something of his/her. Guess it’s better left unsaid.

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A lesson from a friend Thursday, Jun 11 2009

A few days ago i got myself into a setback. Feeling so down about so many things, i decided to talk to some of my friends for advice. Many responded, but i guess these below are the best so far.

“He is the owner of every heart that ever existed. Ask from Him even tough you only need One out of millions. The thoughts of stealing it is even worse, so don’t ever think of that.”

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Day 1 : IChO 2009 Training Monday, Jun 8 2009

Assalamualaikum

9.21pm Isnin 8/6/2009

Kolej kediaman 9 University Malaya

Maka diri ini pun bangun tido dengan rasa tak sedap hati. Cam biase tgk jam, 650 am. Ya Allah, subuh!!!! so aku pun lari dan cepat2 bangun semayang subuh. Selesai doa aku teringat yang hari ni bakal menjadi first day aku kat UM for International Chemistry Olympiad Training 2009. SubhanAllah, diri ini baru sedar yang banyak lagi yang belum di study even tough esok akan ade first test (selasa)… isk2

Mandi—-Sarapan—- Kemas2 skit—- Berangkat pergi

Oleh sebab baru lepas Test komputer dan belum dapat lesen L pun lagi, hanya public transport jadi pilihan. HUrm like usual, KTM di stesen kajang.

Venue: KTM

MasyaAllah sangat2 lah banyak manusia. Diri ini terhimpit di kalangan mereka dan tak mampu nak buat pape. Dapat naik train tanpa perlu tunggu 2 kali pun dah cukup bersyukur. Aku naik di stesen kajang dan turun di KL sentral. Alhamdulillah baki duit dalm touch n go card masih ade rm20+++. Perjalanan ke UM diteruskan dengan menaiki LRT putra.

Venue: LRT putra.

Dengan confident nyer aku naik platform satu nak pegi ke masjid Jamek dan transit LRT STAR pula. Bile dah separuh jalan baru sedar tak perlu pun ke masjid Jamek. Teruskan je ke stesen University gune LRT PUTRA nih. Ish2…

So aku pun patah balik dan tunggu train yang sepatutnya. Tepat 1.00pm aku sampai ke stesen University. Alhamdulillah stesen yang tepat maka aku teruskan perjalanan ke UM dengan menaiki bas Rapid KL T632… hurm leceh

Venue: Pintu gate UM.

Dah sampai. OK what’s next? aku pun tanye Pak guard sbb aku tak tau macammana nak pegi kolej kediaman 9. Pak guard tu gelak!

“K 9 hahahah. Jauh ar dik kalo nk jalan kaki… pi la tahan teksi tuh”

Nak dijadikan cerita orang teksi tu pun tak tau… so dier pun tanye2 org je. Alhamdulillah smpai pun Kolej kediaman 9… Masalahnya, rm10 inggit aku melayang gara2 pemandu teksi tuh.. kuang aSam!!!

Venue: kolej kediaman 9 UM.

Alhamdulillah, pandangan pertama aku kat kolej kediaman(asrama) ni agak positive. Sunyi dan tenteram je. Banyak pokok2 dan bunga yang somehow menenangkan! Aku teringat aku belum solat zuhor so aku pun teruskan mencari surau. Agak pening untuk mencari tapi atas bantuan seorang brader aku pun jumpa surau K9 nih.

Namun hati ini sedikit kecewa bila masuk dah kosong surau tuh… Terlepas lagi peluang solat jemaah yang sering kali aku terlepas semenjak berada di rumah… isk2 sedih. Aku pun teruskan solat…

Setelah dapat kunci bilik aku pun masuk dan kemas. InsyaAllah narative akn diteruskan melalui penerangan tentang facilities2 yang ade kat K9 nih.

Surau

Surau agak menarik, ade aircond sume tapi sayang nya tiada penghuni. So far penantian ku untuk solat jemaah masih berakhir dengan kehampaan even for solat asar. Lepas solat, tadarus aku pun on9 sat. Alhamdulillah dapat connect ke internet.

Time magrib aku pegi ke surau n Alhamdulillah ade jemaah. Rasanya org timur tengah. So aku pun solat jemaah. Bile habis nya, brothers in islam 3 orang itu pun beri salam. Lepas jawab salam diorg pun terus bangun n solat sunat… then pegi. Sedih gak, baru nk tambah kenalan. Tapi takpe ah… Time solat isyak sekali lagi kekosongan… sedih…

Surau ni terletak kat centre Kolej kediaman nih, skali ngan office ngan hall. Tapi time kunjungan aku for solat Isyak.. hall sume dah kosong gak.. cuak gak.

Wireless WIFI

Alhamdulillah, so far connection boleh dapat dimana-mana. Dalam bilik, tandas,taman,surau.. mana2 ah sekitar kolej kediaman. Alhamdulillah.

Accommodation

Alhamdulillah, bilik besar dan lampu kipas sume nya berfungsi. Bilik air dekat je and sume kemudahan berada dalam keadaan baik.

People

Hurm. ni mustahak. Apparently student UM ni tgh semester break. So majoriti pulang ke kampung/bandar halaman. So patutlah kawasan nih sunyi tak rmai org. isk2 borink sungguh. Sampai malam nih aku baru jumpa 8 orang je rasenye… sedih + seram gak ah… Alhamdulilah ade internet n ym leh ar borak2 skit ngan ikwah2 yang dikasihi. rOOMate aku, FRED KMB year 1 (nk masuk year 2) ni tah pegi mana plak tah.. tadi call kate pukul 11mlm baru balik… sigh. Participant lain aku tak tau dorunk nyer bilik kat mana… mmg menyedihkan…

fOOD

Ni satu masalah lagi. Sebab university cuti, catering sume tutup. Dan takde kedai makan langsung!!!!!!!!! Ya Allah.. Diri ini dah takut nnti sakit perut or wutsoever… hurm bile dah petang perut aku pun mula sakit sbb tak lunch lagi. Diri ini pun decide kuar dari bilik cari makan… kuar saje kampus, persekitaran mmg menarik. Diri ini berjalan menyusuri jalan yang diteduhi oleh rimbun pokok ciptaan ilahi. Perasaan yang tenang kembali menghiasi hati yang sepi dan perut yang sakit tadi. MasyaAllah, cantik dan indah sungguh ciptaanNya.

Sampai sahaja ke jalan besar, diri ini naik bingung… Jalan yang jauh tidak diketahui penghujungnya penuh dengan kereta2. Diri ini terus berjalan sehingga akhirnya menjumpai KFC.

Ya Allah… dah takde makanan lain dah ke…

Lama juga diri ini berfikir… Sejak anjakan paradigma Dicember lalu, diri ini cume pernah masuk ke KFC hanya sekali. Patutkah diri ini masuk dah buat rekod kali ke-2 mkn KFC yang sedang diri ini berusaha memboikotnya. Lama berfikir, diri ini pun akhirnya mengambil keputusan untuk masuk ke restoran tersebut… diri ini meng-order makanan  dan selesai membeli, meneruskan perjalanan pulang. ( Faez MO7G mungkin sedang tergelak sekiranya dia membaca post ini…)

Dalam perjalanan pulang, diri ini terbayang ikwah2 lain yang sedang berada di pulau pinang dalam program Jaulah Semenanjung. Mungkin mereka sedang merasai Radix Fried Chicken (RFC) di seberang prai tempat Pokcik selalu pergi sekarang ini. sigh, sedihnya kerana tidak dapat join antum sekalian…

Maka diri ini pun pulang dan menjamah makanan yang ade… dalam hati memamg dah risau. Sebulan hidup di sini tak kn nk makan KFC!!! duit poket yang diberi pun cume rm15 sehari je… Ya Allah semoga dipermudahkan kehidupan hambaMu ini…

So far tu je ah yang berlaku on first day diri ini untuk IChO training 2009.

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The beginning of everything Saturday, May 23 2009

Yup rite, the beginning of everything. 23rd May 2009 marked another important event in my life- The day i ended my IB diploma program. Thanks to the All mighty, i managed to end the examination quite well. May He will reward all of us IB 07/09 students with the best result.

So here goes, the beginning of everything, the beginning of life after 2 years of tarbiyah in KMB. As one challenge goes down, here comes another one, perhaps a tougher one.

Currently I’m still in KMB spending the remaining hours with my beloved ikhwah… Thanks a lot to them, I’ll be bringing home lots of memorable memory.huhuh even now, i can already predict how sad i will be without them. Hurm…..

Well, maybe thats for now, a post which indicates my return to the online blogging world. InsyaAllah, this few months of holiday will allow me to post more important and meaningful messages to ikhwah and akhowat out there. WSLM

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